You wouldn’t want to be bogged down by the sob story I have for why I haven’t been on here. Especially with my enthusiastic post for the beginning of the year promising among other things:
more anime stories
I can’t say that I’ve made any real progress with anything in my life except starting Yu-Yu Hakusho about a week ago. That said, let’s look into the upcoming summer for what we can expect out of this blog.
I’ve also been (mostly) offline for Lent as a time to sit back and meditate on where I’m headed as an almost 30-something geek and what I really have to add to the subculture. Am I even part of it? I like to think so. So I’m going to keep writing and try to squeeze some blood out of this calcified heart of mine and maybe make this into something.
What the @#$% Have I Done Lately?
Wanted movie quote aside, I’ll just share a few things I’ve been doing in my long stretch of an absence.
I started an art hoe Instagram under the username mrsatrocity. I haven’t posted much as it takes me a long time to churn out any amount of art (no matter how mediocre) as I’m a perfectionist and hate not having something to show my audience. I’m also starting from square 1. I’ve done some artwork in the past but I don’t have anything to show for the present. In a sense I’m starting over a lá Re: Zero style as if I don’t have any experience whatsoever.
I’ve also started writing—GASP—fanfiction. Specifically a Final Fantasy XV one.
I don’t have any explanation with this one. I played Final Fantasy 15 and I liked it so much but hated that I didn’t see any black women in it (sans Sonia who I’m pretty sure was black because she was coded as such) and wanted to write her into the plot. I know some people write VERY good fan fiction and it even shows up on TV Tropes under recommended fan fiction for particular works. I honestly want my work to be featured there and I want people to like what I write. Even if it’s porn with plot…or rather it’s plot with porn. If you are interested in reading Eos: Mirror of Truth, click here.
If you do get around to reading it, please leave a review! This writer loves that shit. I also have polls I put on my Instagram to see what readers want to see next. One of my goals was to become more confident in my artwork and to put more of my heart into it. Art and writing are my two big outlets I’ve used to help me in the past, and I’d like to continue them. I also have a goal of making a portfolio of my work on a separate website. I haven’t put any of my earlier work into any portfolios so I hope I can get around to preserving them.
As far as conventions are concerned I only have 2 that I’ve planned to make appearances at: Colossalcon and Dokidokon. The summer is full of events and those are the only ones I can haul my ass to without putting myself through embarrassing debt and blood-vessel popping stress. The con headaches are real you guys and I want to avoid them like Sephiroth’s Second Coming. I do plan on uploading pics and writing about my experiences and hopefully having a good time.
For now though I’m going to cut this post short and go to bed because I’ll have something better to share later on. Maybe this weekend. I think I’ll have time.
Okay, I’ve been absent for an extended period of time. A VERY extended period of time at that. And in my time off I can’t say that I’ve learned anything new or gained any insight to the Geek world. Life comes at you fast and sometimes it takes the fun out of things you love. And I’m sorry to say that I just spent my time off working.
Now that I’m back I haven’t fully decided which direction I’m going with all of this. Shocking, I know. I spent all this money for a domain and I don’t know what to type. In spite of my doubts I will still continue to write about my adventures in the Geekdom and hopefully include more pics/gifs of my cat Stinkbutt Sombra.
I was, however, able to watch a few new anime in my time off. Namely Boku no Hero Academia, Golden Girls, Brooklyn 99, and Devilment Crybaby. Will I write a review on these? Probably not. Did I find them extremely entertaining? Yes…well just about as much as anything that can hold my interest for more than 30 minutes. I have a short attention span and I get bored easily.
While the BDSM world is becoming less and less taboo and ‘kink’ is not the 4-letter word you don’t want to say around strangers; the talk of kinks and fetishes stay reserved for Happy Hour and lunch breaks. In my personal experience among my close friends kinks come up as a regular conversation topic. Keri and I even discussed the fuckability of Safer Sephiroth:
Fetishes aren’t just limited to hentai anymore.
Enter Kakegurui (賭ケグルイ, “The Compulsive Gambler”); the manga and anime that sparked a head-tilting, eyebrow-raising, debate over whether or not there is a line to draw when it comes to crazy. However, given anime fans partiality to crazy waifus it seems that there is no actual limit. Yumeko’s compulsion to gamble and love of little else sets the stage in the anime set in a school that merely enables her to indulge to her heart’s content. Hyakkaou Academy proves to be the feast she was hoping for.
In case you thought I was kidding take a peak at the opening theme whose lyrics come from Yumeko’s point of view:
While reading the manga and watching the anime I noticed a lot of food and fish metaphors. Even the two “focus” characters Yumeko and Kirari have last names (Jabami and Momobami) with the suffix -bami which translates to “devour” respectively. And hoo boy the story does not disappoint on the devouring metaphor!
The bottom 100 students are reduced to “housepets” and are left at the mercy of the student body—literally up for consumption. Those who don’t wish to have their debts collected must subject themselves to a Life Plan that literally plans out their whole lives including who they marry and how many children they have. I failed to mention the Student Council is the entity calling the shots and making said plans.
No such thing scares the infamous Jabami who by now has literally creamed herself at the prospect of having her life controlled by someone else. It’s every bit as bizarre as it sounds. The thrill of the gamble and the uncertainty is what makes it oh so amazing. Even once she becomes a housepet she is undaunted, declaring that such a Student Council President that invokes such rules must be the best gamble of all.
Going straight from Yumeko’s extraordinary yet palpable sense of taste and right into Midari’s all-Hell-breaks-loose insanity is an experience in and of itself. If you have to gouge out your own eye in order to feel any excitement from pain you will probably be barred from every dungeon in existence. In this universe however, such devotion earns you a spot on the student council complete with your own lackeys to work with you:
Midari is a gun-wielding, pain-loving compulsive masturbator whose greatest desire is to lose her life in a gamble. Her game of choice is Russian Roulette and her entire life is driven to worship the women who she sees as her equal *coughs* it’s Jabami *coughs*. I personally found her fun to watch and read about. It’s also no surprise that a majority of my nerdy friends also found her a bangable babe. What is with nerds and yandere archetypes?
Did I mention she also rigs games so she can lose? Yumeko catches on to this and is repulsed, *not* because she carries a gun and kidnaps and forces you to gamble for your life. But *because* the game is rigged in Midari’s favor and therefore isn’t any fun to play with. Remember: Yumeko’s Code states that the uncertainty of the gamble is what makes it orgasmic. Everything else is trash. Therefore, Midari is trash.
All moral myopia and rampant hatred of mankind aside I can’t bring myself to actually hate this manga. It’s still ongoing and I’m waiting for the American release for the next few volumes that will inevitably make my pulse go through the roof and make my toes curl in anticipation of the finale. Do I recommend it? Yeah, I actually do. The anime and manga explain some pretty interesting gambling games that are fun to play at parties (as long as you don’t bet actual money that is!).
I’ll probably revisit this manga again to kinkshame it some more because it’s fun! And critiquing is my fetish.
In the wake of RealDolls and robots gaining citizenship the war between humans and machines is heating up. The commentary surrounding Artificial Intelligence and objects coming to life is as old as the tale of Pygmalion whose sculpture was brought to life by the gods due to his…devotion deemed as love. While some accept this story of wish fulfillment, others are quick to point out the obvious flaws and repercussions that come with creating new life and designing your ideal lover.
This story is told and retold through all forms of media and the only thing that changes is the tropes and setting.
Sources of reference:
Chobits – CLAMP
Doll –Mitsukazu Mihara
Ghost in the Shell
The topics I’ll be exploring include:
Relationships between humans and A.I.
Tropes: Born Sexy Yesterday, Pygmalion Plot,
Algalmatophillia and similar fetishes
Plastic surgery and dollification
Lust versus Love and psychological responses
Needs for companionship and relations between humans
Digital Ghosts, Brain Uploading, and the Future
This will likely be a multi part work seeing as this is a content-heavy discussion. I’ll make sure to post as many sources as I can, make links, and try to keep a sense of humor in all of this. However, themes concerning what it means to be human are hardly humorous. That said, I’ll get started.
Does Chii Dream of Electric Sheep?
CLAMP, a world renowned manga artist team famous for their works such as Card Captor Sakura, Angelic Layer, and XXXHolic, explores the idea of relationships between human and machine. These themes show up poignantly in the highly favored manga series Chobits:
The story explores a future where Persocoms (personal computers) take the form of humans with many options available. The protagonist, Hideki finds a discarded Persocom in an alleyway and takes her home. He turns her on and discovers she has no data and can only say “chi”. He names her Chii and hijinks ensue.
Across several volumes we learn the stories of other people who have had their lives touched by their experiences with Persocoms:
Yumi Omura: A high school student who has a complex about Persocoms and wonders if she’ll be able to measure up. She’s in love with a man who married his Persocom, and she happens to resemble her. This does get touched on.
Takko Shimizu: A cram school teacher whose husband leaves her for a Persocom. Falls in love with one of her students.
Hiromu Shinbo: Cram student and friend of Hideki. He marries Shimizu. Owns Sumomo.
Hiroyasu Ueda: A baker who married his Persocom. She passes away protecting him.
Minoru Kokubunji: A Persocom expert who created a Persocom to replace his lost sister.
Chitose Hibiya: Wife of Chii’s original creator. She’s actually Chii’s original mother.
Without going into too many unnecessary details the story explores human/persocom, persocom/persocom, and human/human relationships. The story itself is surprisingly optimistic and falls heavily on the idealistic scale, believing that humans and machines can have actual relationships.
My experience with the series was rather emotional and the outcome was unexpected. It explored Persocoms exploring their own feelings and figuring out what life means to them as machines. The story within a story “A City With No People” asks the overlaying question if humans can truly love Persocoms and whether or not our second protagonist, Chii, will be able to choose the “someone just for her” and be accepted.
While people experience attraction to fictional characters and that is seen as odd, but somewhat normal; what happens when you bring those characters to life? What happens when you give them physical bodies? What happens when you give them a free range program complete with emotions? What if? What if? What if? First Hatsune Miku hologram concerts, then what?
IC: In a Doll
On the cynical side we have a much darker and dare I say, realistic (?) point of view from Mitsukazu Mihara. Her stories are steeped in tragedy told through stunning illustration and fashion design. Stories like Dokuhime and Beautiful People rip into the gut and nibble on the heartstrings of those not expecting the content to be so heavy. A warning to any who dare to read: death is a VERY common feature in these stories and the artwork contains gore.
I own the first volume of Doll and I’ve read it several times. Online I’ve read up to about 3 volumes myself but have not revisited them. The stories range from comical to disturbing as the story of Dolls, beautiful androids, and their place with humanity. The most touching story comes from the first book where the doctor who created Dolls has come down with a non-reversible form of dementia. Her memories degenerate very quickly and soon she’s unable to head the project. Her husband decides to try to replace her with a doll replica and well…:
He ends up leaving the project to take care of his wife, but not before leaving some very important rules:
Never create in the image of a living person.
Never blur the line between human and doll.
And the third rule: Never transplant human memories into a doll.
These rules get exploited and loopholed as the series goes on, as one might expect. One story tells of a young boy who gets a doll that looks like his mother. There’s another story of a man whose hatred of women (and underlying mommy issues) compels him to buy a doll and customize her to—you guessed it—look like his mother. Dolls are also easily discarded, another story shows, and are scrapped in favor of new ones.
Dolls are sometimes seen as a menace and some people are reluctant to have them. Others have their lives changed in positive ways–often before their certain demise, or the demise of others. This manga doesn’t shy away from the grim realities that face both humans and dolls alike. By the time Dolls hit the shelves, the economy is a wreck, jobs are scarce or poor-paying, and humans trust each other less and less.
The uncanny resemblance to our current culture should be disturbing, but really isn’t as I’ve been conditioned to accept these kinds of horror through my consumption of Nightmare Fuel. This manga raises all sorts of saddening and uncomfortable questions of agency, identity, and what it means to be truly human. With reality and fantasy seeming to come closer and closer together, will the lines blur and disappear completely? Or, will we manage to make some kind of distinction between the two?